I have rather this odd feeling. Its me, I mean I am Adg (?), but still, like umpteenth time I feel I am not. Okay, the thing is, this year, except for one good thing, everything has tumbled ( which includes even that one good thing )No doubt, I am have become strongest ( really ! that was a lie :P now that wasn't )But from middle of this year I haven't accepted adg ( except for someone who had forced me to, and that actually worked , for sometime though ) as my own part. ( I am blabbering, ain't I ?
So the thing is I just want to ask ( to myself or you guys I don't know ), should I continue when the pen name I write under no more gives me any sense of feeling ( The only reason I write apart from letting out is coz my page views doesn't show 0 :/ strange reason isn't it ?! ) I want to write ( yeah I can't quit that ) but don't feel like writing here . Should I continue ? ( Even if you say yes, a part of me is saying no and other as yes :-/ ) Help me solve my confusion ( suggestions taken into account )
3 spoke to dreamy:
When i began writing years back.. for the thrill of it I had a pen name too.. totally different from my name.. cos my writings were meant to be personal and I felt the writer was somebody different from me. But in my writing journey i realised.. its finally you all along.. its your thoughts, your words, its the truth. So well I let go of my pen name.. and i just shortened my real name to Dee.. just a style factor and kinda a pen name. :)
Ada,
It is your decision to continue or not but all I will say is that if you decide not to, a lot of us will miss you here. You write or should I say weave words well. Wait is really building up to climax and wait for next part is really eager. As far as writing under pen name is concerned, it is again individual choice. I write under pen name as I do not want identity of those about whom I write at times to be compromised. My request will be that you continue writing, real name or pen name is upto you.
Take care
:-Dee, I wouldn't have agreed to you had you said this a year, wouldnt have agreed to you,but now I feel whatever you are saying is right. I too have a feeling adg is now some other person and in process of being adg, I am losing myself .. I don't know how I sound, but its true to an extent. But i had changed my name too, still i didn't feel comfortable and came to adg again, of which again m not happy at all ..
Jack, that was really unexpected, i mean i never expected i would be appreciated and motivated to write ,from you :)I am confused too honestly, i have memories with this place, lot, but some people, which i dont want to, too are reading. so lot insecured as i am unable to be myself, defeating the very purpose i started to blog. Pen name, well ad and aarti and both me. not sure if i am disliking any of them, or its circumstance thats creating an illusion.. crossing my fingers
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