Spring was here, after a terrible coldness. Her heart grew heavier when she saw the date. The day of love was approaching fast, and that made her heart sank into depression. She fought hard, to push everything away. It ended, like every love story, heart broken and briny memories. But Valentine's Day would bring the old times back. His face would pop again. She would have to go through all over that, again.
She now understood that true love didn't exist except in films and novels. And the thought burned her more . She didn't feel a thing about love. It had left no feelings in her. Everything was gone. He took away her smile and her pure soul.
She tried, tried hard to get back onto life. But the history would repeat. She would befriend, only to get betrayed later. She couldnt understand the chain of events that followed. Was it because he left her or was it completely her fault ? Was she to be blamed for whatever that happened ? Her heart knew the answer, yet the mind kept intervening.
She logged on to the computer, read depressing stories, stories that could stir emotions and anger, stories that showed the other side of the world, stories that silently spoke of gifts she was blessed with, stories that were left unsaid, behind the story. She read them, read them till her eyes refused to stare at the black words.
She came into her room. The stories were clogged inside. Her past was still taunting her intelligence. She headed to the washroom. It was there, in a corner. She wanted to kill, put an end to the pain. Despite the numbness, she knew the consequences. But she wont suffer any heart breaks. She would now be valued, and that's what she wanted.
She took the acid bottle, and poured it on her skin.
She now understood that true love didn't exist except in films and novels. And the thought burned her more . She didn't feel a thing about love. It had left no feelings in her. Everything was gone. He took away her smile and her pure soul.
She tried, tried hard to get back onto life. But the history would repeat. She would befriend, only to get betrayed later. She couldnt understand the chain of events that followed. Was it because he left her or was it completely her fault ? Was she to be blamed for whatever that happened ? Her heart knew the answer, yet the mind kept intervening.
She logged on to the computer, read depressing stories, stories that could stir emotions and anger, stories that showed the other side of the world, stories that silently spoke of gifts she was blessed with, stories that were left unsaid, behind the story. She read them, read them till her eyes refused to stare at the black words.
She came into her room. The stories were clogged inside. Her past was still taunting her intelligence. She headed to the washroom. It was there, in a corner. She wanted to kill, put an end to the pain. Despite the numbness, she knew the consequences. But she wont suffer any heart breaks. She would now be valued, and that's what she wanted.
She took the acid bottle, and poured it on her skin.
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ReplyDeleteThough you have said in previous post Welcome Aarti but since you sign as Adreamygal, I would address you as that while saying anything here on your posts. Kindly do not lose heart as you have, as you said yourself, come back from situation not to your liking which shows you can be confident to be what you are or want to be. On this post, in case of a relationship going sour, one needs to do self introspection with honest and unbiased application of mind. It is not difficult to pin point where does the reason lie. The one who hurts self is a coward. One needs to be strong to face what may come and achieve what one wants.
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Dear Jack, first of all thank you so much for the concern. I smiled reading that. First of all, that was just a fiction, quiet dark one I know, but still a fiction. I wouldnt lie that it is a complete fiction as there are parts where my feelings have escaped in form of words. Dont worry, I am fine. Dont have the habit of quitting. Even if I do, God always sends angels to get me back to right way :)
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